Afraid...

Afraid to open my eyes in front of you again,
Too afraid to smile to you and you to return my smile.
Always so scared of my actions towards you...
Afraid not to do any mistakes.
Not to lose you...
Even if we are so far apart, so different and so strange,
My heart started to beat faster when I see you.
And I know is wrong,
I know I should not do that.
Not to lie to myself again...
Because this is really impossible. Inaccessible and prohibited!
Because the distance is killing us.
And because you would never see me as a girl, but just as a person. Another... person.
Afraid... to even look at you in the eyes.
Too afraid... to even say hi.
Doing the same mistake as ever... being cold towards you... making you go away, as far as possible.
Because... I'm just afraid...